i feel like i am astray once more
lost in a sea of uncertainty
i imagine myself floating...
gliding even
through transparent nothing
not moving an inch
uselessly moving through clear blur
the foundation from which i support myself
it shakes underneath my feet
casting a shadow on everything i love
on everything i am so sure of
my mind is lost to the winds of my own weakness
and once again
i am floating uselessly through my own anguish
I'm so tired
I don't want to fight anymore
Ive done that all my life
Ive always shoved my problems into a wardrobe
Only to carry it all upon my back
There was nothing i could do about my problems
Ive always had to fight
Always trying to find a way out
Something
Anything
That could give me freedom
But over time
The wardrobe prevailed
Ive had to walk far and even climb mountains
All the while walking in circles
With that wardrobe still strapped to my back
I want to cut the rope that binds me to this wretched weight
I want it to fall away
I want to rest
I want to lie still
I want it all to go away.
My wounds are open and continue to fester
I have my mountain to climb
Every day proves difficult to scale
Its an effort to get up
Its an effort to keep going
I am getting tired
And I run the risk of letting go
And plummeting to my death
Depression
What seems like my only companion
Is constantly clinging to me
Like a predator in the dark
Waiting
Patiently
For me to fail
My thoughts of her sail across my mind like a boat across a stagnant ocean
She stands alone among the rest
And from those thoughts my heart does construct
A pain so powerful I feel as if I'm someone else
I am just a reflection staring back at me
Nothing more than an image
I feel
A stunted feeling
Not quite crying
But enough to burn my moment for a while longer than a bee’s sting
I don’t believe I ever got a reason to stop loving her
Back when it ended
And I don’t think I ever will find one
My love, I will take it to my grave
Will I ever be able to look back upon these memories without a single regret?
Seeing as I let you sli
Steaming and stewing in my own emotions
I don't want to let you go
I wonder
Would it be wise to tell you?
After everything falls apart,
Its as if all issues baring down upon us did't exist
I still want to wrap you up in my arms
I still want to hold you close to me at night
I still love you
And I don't want to let go
I don't want to move on
I don't want to give you up
And I wonder
Whats the point of this solitary state of mine?
You
Capture me so easily with the way you move
How the hair falls in your face
The look in your big blue eyes from minute to minute
How you speak
The words you chose
And your beautiful smile
Yet
I think about being wit
The Ocean and the Shore by SirEdmond477, literature
Literature
The Ocean and the Shore
Her fingers pluck the guitar like the tide waning out on a calm ocean shore
Her eyes shown through like the gentle sunset colors touching the beach
Strawberry brown hair falling in her face
So much like those velvet colors stretched out and mirrored on the sands
Endless
Like my love
Shes that gentle calm that sedates all your doubts as you gather all the waves into your senses
Right in front of you
Beauty of many different colors flaring up
So close you can almost touch it
But seemingly so far away
The shore ever reaches out
Just as I long to
One second shes in your arms
The next she slips through your fingers
Sliding between any obstacles
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The Sound of the Guitar by SirEdmond477, literature
Literature
The Sound of the Guitar
I don’t want to do anything
I just want to sit here
And lose myself in the subtle sounds of a speechless guitar tune
I can hear my hopes and dreams all in one song
My paradise lies within
If only I could open up these sound waves
And fly to a heaven all to myself
There
Everything would be better
There
I would feel I belong
In my world
Where nothing can go wrong
I could live off the notes of every beautiful song
And drink the vibrations of ever string
The tunes would accompany me
Comfort me when I am upset
Sing me to sleep when I toss and turn
I wouldn’t need anybody
Or anything
But the sound of the guitar